when you are having a lovely dream and your alarm goes off - what a buzz kill!

A movie i uploaded onto YouTube for the shits and gigs...

Virginal &hearts

I decided to go to a braai at an old friends house the other night. I was rather anxious as I hadn't seen the person in a really long time but before I knew it I was in my smart car listening to the Black Keys not knowing quite what to expect. Upon arrival I was encouraged both by my friend and me to crack open a bottle of wine. The crowed comprised of a mixture of people that I was only really acquainted with on facebook and what not so I thought fuck it. New people, why not enjoy myself? So I did. But almost one bottle of wine later I found myself in a bit of a sticky situation! Attention was flowing my way rather intensely from a guy I will call "Zane" to my left.

ZANE: "So tell me a bit about yourself," he suggests whilst lighting up his 13th cigarette.
ME: "Well what do you want to know?" I ask. (Gosh what a cliche, and now that i look back on it, it sounds slightly flirtatious?)
ZANE: "Are you a virgin?" (!!??!! - this is what I see in my head)
ME: "Excuse me but that is a rather personal question." (I mean come on!)
ZANE: "Well I am"
ME: "I dont really believe you"
ZANE: "Well its true, hey dude (he calls to his friend who is adding cola to his klipdrift)I'm a Virgin hey?"
KLIPDRIFT: "Oh ya this guy is saving himself"
ZANE: "Yes I'm saving myself for you"
ME: "Oh really? Thats a bit forward don't you think?"
ZANE: "Well not really. I even had a dream about you last night. Will you come with me round the corner?"
ME: "NO! I would never go into a dark corner with you!"

At this point I get up and walk with a friend to the kitchen.
FRIEND: "Please don't hookup with him..."
ME: "Oh god no, what, is he dodge?"
FRIEND: "No I like him"
ME: "Oh"

So I basically spent the rest of the night fending Zane off with a stick and when he finally left (after first asking me to take him into town, which i replied "no") he decided to spank me. YES. SPANK. I whipped his hand away with my keys (i hope it hurt!) and looked at my friend. I looked at her and my eyes said that this guy is an asshole and its time to "like" someone else. I hope she read it in my gaze.

So this post is dedicated to those women out there who give guys the benefit of the doubt, who lower their standards to feel something. We all do it, a lot of the time without noticing. We want to feel loved. Feel apart of something but really, all the time spent running after or being with the 'ok' guy is time away from being true to yourself and maybe even from the right guy.

Just think about it. :)

I finally remembered my password

How ridiculous is it when you have so many website accounts that you find yourself forgetting your secret codes? Sometimes I wish I could write "open sesame!" and my accounts would magically open.
Anyway, so it has been A LONG TIME since I last blogged. Towards the end of last year I was getting extremely tied up with this and that - e.g. trying to pass my year!! and thus blogging took the back seat. But now that I am on holiday (well into it in fact) I spose it is a fitting time to get right back into it. I am back home in my beautiful but rather small town of Knysna. Where days are spent chilling out on the deck of my house, cooking, reading, feeding the dogs, going to the beach, running, going for coffee etc. etc. The nightlife has been on the good side this holiday as well, but I find that I may be getting a bit old and the novelty of the local club Zanzibar has kind of worn off. The crowed just keeps getting younger, my 16 year old brother is even turning into a regular! However I do enjoy going out with my friends and walking/ getting a ride in a trolley home. (Note to self; make sure you dont let Angus get as drunk as he did the other night and take you on a death ride down main street in a pick n pay trolley!)

Oh - I am home alone. Yes. Alone. It sounds cool but it really isn't. I am not the kind who thinks "AAAAH HOUSE PARTY!!" when my parents leave. So I have been spending a lot of time reading as there are no distractions when everyone is gone..
So far this holiday I have read:

-Scarred (A terrible, terrible book which I only finished as an ocd thing (i have to finish books that I start) and when it was done I tore the front page off and then threw everything in the bin. So yes. Dont reed it - there are typos galore in it just like my blog.)

-Big Dan's Sofie (a South African novel set around Knysna about a white family and their hardships - a great read!)

-The Postmistress (a girly world war 2 novel set in both London during the blitz and in America before the war hit them. I enjoyed it.)

-Room (BRILLIANT. JUST. READ. IT. Once you have gotten passed the first part of the book where you will probably find it rather bizarre - you will be HOOKED.) And Kira if you read this post I am sending you a special request to please carry on reading it whatever you do! :)

-The Elegance of the Hedgehog (An intellectual fiction novel about two very philosophical and intelligent thinkers who both live in the same building, are 40 years apart and don't know about each others cleverness. The 11 year old girl decides that she does not like the state of the world and has decided to commit suicide on her 12th birthday. It is brilliant.)


Okay please excuse my incredibly unrelated, disjointed and rather bland post - this was just a warm up to get me back into the whole thing again.
byebye